116.5 lbs. :\ pretty good since i strayed a bit yesterday, didn't eat over 800 but still.
today is my last full day for summer. hopefully i'll get really really wasted/fucked up tonight, so just in case i'll fast today, maybe eat a couple strawberries.
i know that once i get beneath 116 lbs i'll be in the clear, it's my obstacle for now. visibly, there is no difference. but i grab my fat on my sides every day now, & i can tell when there's less.
well, there's less.
but i want it all gone. gone, gone, gone.
i really need to finish my summer work... & go back to school shopping...! eek
i don't know what's going to happen this school year; i don't like my group of friends. they bore me & always say my artwork is "too weird" & stuff like that. it just aggravates me, because most of them are somewhat narrow-minded. i'm being incredibly condescending, but at least they're thinner than me...
i've been invited by this group of (i sound like a total loser for saying this) artsy kids to sit at their lunch table. they're insane, they're my type of people. i want to, i know i'd have fun. but i know my friends would just talk about me behind my back that whole time, you know, the whole typical high school ordeal. i don't even consider myself friends with most of them; the others, just because we've been friends for the past couple years.
i need to purify my life as well as my body. :|
1 comments:
And you'll do it! i'm sure you'll lose all that fat :) you're so close to the 115 lbs!
It seems that high school bores us both. I don't find any common interests with people in my class either :/
And about the artsy kids ("artsy".. such a cute word!) i think that if you feel good doing it, sit with them! don't listen to your friends..if they are really your friends they won't talk behind your back i think..
Take care!
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