love

i really want to scream, but i dont have the energy.

i danced like complete fucking shit tonight. & my teacher told me so. i have a competition on sunday & this isn't the way i want to start the weekend. i am so angry at myself for not practicing enough. i'm so stupid, such a dumbfuck.

plus i ate today. i probably gained. AWESOME.

(sorry, i'm in a really pissy mood & i have to get up at 6:50 a.m. for work tomorrow)