this must be the place

i'm at 116. i lost a pound over night yesterday, WITH lunch & an enormous binge before & AFTER dance.

seriously, i'm not joking when i say i work hard.

i've been doing better lately. i need to be stronger, mentally & physically. (i need better core muscles for dance... hahaha)

lately my mom has been pressuring my a lot for dance, but it's probably because i'm a lot more serious about it now too. it gets annoying, but fuck, she's driving me EVERYWHERE & pay for it all, so i go with it. i push myself really really hard & i've made some vast improvements. one teacher told me i was easily the most improved over the whole year, & all my teachers agreed. & my other teacher told me my steps looked even better last night than the last time she'd seen them (june).

even my dance friends are pressuring me to do well, everyone seems to think i'm really amazing now? it's flattering, but really new. i like though, i feel like i belong better.

i'm built to be a dancer, actually. i'm short & have this beautiful arch naturally. even before i started dancing (because i only started when i was about 10 or 11), i was told i had an amazing arch. plus, i have "beautifully" turned out & crossed feet all the time. usually that's the last thing people pick up, i've been told, but i've always seemed to have it. the only thing is, that i have ridiculously short legs. my inseam is about 28 - 29 ", whereas on a proportional 5'3 person, it'd be 30 - 31". at least will all the girls i know, anyway.

on a completely random note, are strawberries negative calories? because my friend told me they weren't, but i've read in a couple of places that they were considered negative calories... i really hope so!