without even trying, i hardly eat. i hate the sight of food, i hate the feeling & taste of it in my mouth. i'm still around 115/116, haven't had the time to weigh. i haven't been good, though. i have to eat to prove myself & right now i can feel a sandwich in the bottom of my stomach, & the disgusting thought of it makes me nauseous.
everyone's being saying how i don't eat lately. my one friend was telling me i was too thin to begin with & skipping lunch i could pass out. for a few days i was really happy, but now i'm back in a depressed rut. i get like this. happy, then sad, then angry, then creative, & repeat.
i wish i had a boyfriend, or a good guy friend, or a love interest. i scare them all away because i don't want them, but right now, i do. i need someone because i feel like crying all the time.
lately, i've realized that when i feel my upper thighs touch i become insanely, outrageously infuriated. then i get sad about it. why am i such a teenager?
1 comments:
Don't be sad dear, you'll see how everything will be better. Think about how all this effort you're making right now will worth in the end, in spite of your friend's comments.
If u wanna have a bf, just go for it! Trying to find one could be a great idea to forget the sadness and the starving feeling.
The upper thighs thing has happened to me too. I try to forget about it, actually it motivates me even more to lose weight. If we didn't have that piece of fat in our thighs right now, then when we became thin, it wouldn't feel soo good.
Take care, and don't forget that you can count on me whenever you want.
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