mannequin

oh fuck. i think i gained 2 lbs. that's what i get for 4 days of BINGING. so now i'm 117/117.5. nice, right?

but at the same time, i've lost fat from my stomach & hips now that dance has picked back up with the school year. my "old" body (last june), i had a completely flat stomach, couldn't pull any fat on it. my hips were ehh, they weren't prominent but there wasn't excess on them. i want hip bones again, & i want skinny legs. my legs have gotten a little bit smaller, i've noticed... at least i think.

i can do this, i've done it before. it was this time last year i was dropping 3 lbs a week. so why can't i do it now?