every time i eat, my head starts to feel like something is pushing on either side of it & something goes off in my mind that makes me insanely angry? i don't know what's going on. i've eaten WAY too much the past day & a half... that's what happens when parents are breathing down your neck... :( haven't weighed myself, gah.
this picture makes me sick to my stomach with desire. i have never wanted so bad as much as i want these legs & those arms.
yesterday i was doing well, threw up during dance so i knew i hadn't eaten too much. i know i hate when it happens, but it was a relief... & then i was forced out to eat & i ate normal today... my hands reached for food, but i really wanted to yell out? it was a strange sensation. i need more control of my body. food will not have a part in my life anymore.
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