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119 lbs. i was forced out to lunch with my family, so i'm slightly bloated here. FUCK i disappoint myself way too much.
i went shopping today, bought jeans, a shirt & make up. the jeans are a size 0. they'd look much nicer if my thighs weren't so fucking fat. i'm scared for school to start, because when school ended i was 114 lbs... 5 lbs on a petite frame often looks more like a GAZILLION pounds, clearly.
i used to be the girl that could eat anything she wanted & have her ribcage showing without any stretching. that was last summer. i didn't even realize how thin i was until my friend pointed it out to me. i was around 110-114 lbs then too. then i went up to 117 at the end of summer. that's when i started to restrict & fast. i got down to 108 in december & maintained it for a while, until i started building a lot of muscle & went up to 114. everyone used to say i was "wasting away". i want people to say how thin i am again.
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oh hey emmakii. :)
ha I'm 2 inches shorter but we have somewhat a similar body frame. I'm also stressing about school and how im going to look on the first day. I also wear size zero jeans but my thighs just kill it. Yeah. I also used to have a high metabolism. I remember eating a snickers everyday and have no gain whatsover but those day are long over. ha now i gain. My average weight is around 112 but i manage to lose some and last time i checked i was 105. I can manage to lose fast but i can gain them so quickly in a matter of days. uhmm thanks for you comment and good luck on your weightlose. I'm always here if you need some encouragement. :]
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